Currently Listening Rites of Passage By Indigo Girls Galileo see related

it's about time...

I haven't posted in a while, so i suppose it's about time to update my poor, neglected xanga.  on to the emotional musings -- i've been feeling a bit overwhelmed and insufficient.  this is getting to be a trend for me.  it feels like everything that i have to deal with currently is well within the range of my capabilities.  the problem is that my attention span has gradually worsened since freshman year, which was my first year off of ADD meds.  i feel like the ADD affects me more and more each year, and it's gotten extremely bad in the past 2 years, but my mom is strongly opposed to any medication that is not absolutely necessary, and she doesn't think i need it.  if i pushed her enough, i could go back to dr. garrison and get on it again, but i don't know if that's what i want to do.  i am much happier in non-school respects being off of it.  the stuff really affected my personality -- i was much more uptight and didn't have nearly as much fun.  i was less free-spirited and creative, more singularly focused on things.  i'm generally happy with who i am right now, and i don't want to change it in that way.  i am able to function well enough right now, but only because i don't find school to be challenging.  i can ring in the A's with minimal work.  however, next semester, my schedule is going to be demanding.  right now i have ap calc, ap english, zoology, and creative writing -- i'm switching into ap euro, ap stats, and class for the school newsmagazine, which i'll probably be editing, plus more calc.  this term, i was not challenged.  however, i am concerned about my new classes.  it is not my abilities that concern me... i worry about being able to actually use them.  i don't know if can get my act together to do as well as i should do in those classes, and even more disconcerting is the thought of college.  college will be immensely more difficult than high school has been, and i really don't know how i'll be able to function without medicine.. *sigh*  I do believe it will all work out, though.  until then, i'll have to cope as best i can. 

please don't give me advice on this, unless i ask you, especially if the advice is "just don't get distracted."  it's a very complicated situation, and i need to work through it myself.  also, while everyone procrastinates now and then and could sympathize, i feel as if most people probably couldn't empathize, unless they also have some type of diagnosed attention disorder and have attempted to function without meds.  i am a bit wary of advice from others.  if you guys want to help, a generic "hope things get better" would suffice.    

on a more upbeat note, most other aspects of my life have been going remarkably well.  socially, things have been great.  i'm working through some conflicts i've been having with others, and i feel like my friendships are improving because of it.  also, i have been better able lately to just let things go, rather than worry incessantly about the various interactions.  my attitude has been more relaxed and fun.  i'm happy about that.

last night, at the suggestion of rob, kathleen and i went to see "A Life to Call Your Own" at st. x.  i enjoyed it a lot, and i think kathleen did too.  the music was excellent -- jessica hendy is an extremely talented singer.  any of you cincinnati folks should go see it tonight, if you have the chance!  tickets are $10 at the door for students, and the student seating was right in front of the stage.  one of my favorite parts of the performance was "Galileo," a song by the indigo girls (one of my favorite bands). it was great to hear her rendition of it... it's a very beautiful song, so i think i'll post the lyrics for you guys.  have a wonderful weekend.

Galileo's head was on the block
The crime was looking up the truth
And as the bombshells of my daily fears explode
I try to trace them to my youth

Then you had to bring up reincarnation
Over a couple of beers the other night
Now I'm serving time for mistakes
Made by another in another lifetime

How long till my soul gets it right?
Can any human being ever reach that kind of light?
I call on the resting soul of Galileo
King of night vision, king of insight

And then I think about my fear of motion
Which I never could explain
Some other fool across the ocean years ago
Must have crashed his little airplane

How long till my soul gets it right?
Can any human being ever reach that kind of light?
I call on the resting soul of Galileo
King of night vision, king of insight

I'm not making a joke, you know me 
I take everything so seriously
If we wait for the time till all souls get it right
Then at least I know there'll be no nuclear annihilation in my lifetime
I'm still not right

I offer thanks to those before me
That's all I've got to say
Maybe you squandered big bucks in your lifetime
Now I have to pay

But then again it feels like some sort of inspiration
To let the next life off the hook
Or she'll say look what i had to overcome from my last life
I think I'll write a book

How long till my soul gets it right?
Can any human being ever reach the highest light?
Except for Galileo, God rest his soul
King of night vision, king of insight
How long... How long... How long...

all right, loves...

... who has a facebook?

if you do, you should add me.  i'd give you a link but the one i had didn't work and i don't want to put my last name here, or else you could've done a search.  so... leave a comment or something and i'll look you up.  i dunno.

also, happy halloween.. see below post about UNICEF. 

Currently Listening Plans By Death Cab for Cutie I Will Follow You into the Dark see related

Halloween - UNICEF

Do you have any plans for halloween yet? 

if not, PLEASE join us in TRICK-OR-TREAT for UNICEF!

it's happening Halloween Night.  you get to dress up, collect some candy if you wish, and it counts for community service hours if you go in my group -- ms. foldy will document it for you.  we're organizing it through Colerain's Stand for Tolerance Club, but you don't have to be in that club -- you don't even have to go to Colerain to trick-or-treat with us.

you go out with your friends, and ring people's doorbells.  however, instead of just candy, you ask them to donate money to UNICEF.  you'll have a little box for the good samaritans to put their change into.  Then, we count our money and send it to UNICEF.

 if you already have trick-or-treat plans, or if you're one of my non-cincinnati friends, you should stop by Abby's Hallmark at Northgate (or whatever hallmark is near you -- check this site for a location) to get your FREE box to collect donations on your own. 

this is open to anyone 18 or younger!  it raises much-needed money for starving children.  $4 can buy a large wool blanket, and $2.50 can buy school supplies for one kid.  if you're going out anyway... you might as well participate, or at least suggest it to your younger siblings. you could still party it up afterwards, as the UNICEF trick-or-treat group will be finished by 8 PM. 

please see the UNICEF page for more details.  if you want to go or have questions, please contact me.  just call, leave a comment, IM, e-mail me, send up a smokesignal, whatever.

Currently Listening Hello Love By Be Good Tanyas A Thousand Tiny Pieces see related

I WANT THIS GUY

1. When she asks how she looks, shrug and say "could be better." This will keep her on her toes... and girls love that.

2. Never hold her hand. This can be interpreted as a sign of weakness. (or if she grabs your hand squeeze hers really really hard until she cries. This will impress her by showing her what a strong man you are.)

3. Once a month sneak up on her from behind and knock her over. Girls are like dogs. They love to be roughed up.

4. Call her in the middle of the night to ask if she's sleeping. If she is, say "you better be." Repeat this 4 or 5 times until morning. This will show her that you care.

5. When she is upset about something, suggest to her that it might be her fault. This will pave the way for her own personal improvement... and every girl needs some improvement.

6. Recognize the small things. They usually mean the most. Then when she's sleeping, steal all her small things and break them. Because jewelry is for pussies and asian ladies.

7. If you're talking to another girl, make sure shes looking. When she is, stare into her eyes mouth the words "fuck you," and grab the other girls ass. Girls love competition.

8. Tell her you're taking her out to dinner. Drive for miles so she thinks it's going to be really special. Then take her to a burning tire yard. When she starts to get upset, tell her you were just kidding and now you're really going to take her to dinner. Then drive her home. When she starts crying and asks why you would do something like that lean over and whisper very quietly into her ear "...because i can."

9. Introduce her to your friends as "some chick". Women love those special nicknames.

10. Play with her hair. Play with it HARD.

11. Warm her up when shes cold. But not by giving her your jacket... Then YOU might get cold. Rather, look her in the eye and say "If you don't stop bitching about the cold right now you're going to be bitching about a black eye." The best way to get warm is with fear.

12. Take her to a party. When you get there she'll have to go to the bathroom (they always do). Leave immediately. Come back right when the partys dying and yell at her the whole way home for ditching you at the party.

13. Make her laugh. A good way to do this is if she has a small pet. Kick the pet. I always find stuff like that funny. Why shouldn't girls?

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms. When she's fast asleep, wait 10 minutes then JUMP UP AND SCREAM IN HER EAR! Repeat this until she goes home and you can use your arms for more important things, like basketball.

15. Spit often. I hear girls like guys that spit.

16. If you care about her, never ever tell her. This will only give her self confidence. Then you can never turn her into the object she deep down desires to be.

17. Every time you're in her house, steal one of the following: shoes, earrings, or anything else that comes in pairs. Only take one of the pair. This way she'll go crazy.

18. Take her out to dinner. Right when shes about to order interrupt and say no shes not hungry. Make her watch you eat. Girls love a guy that speaks for her.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile. Then clock her in the face. Girls love a spontaneous guy.

20. Give her one of your t-shirts... And make sure it has your smell on it. But not a sexy cologne smell. A bad smell. You know what I'm talking about.

21. When its raining, keep asking her if shes crying. She'll say "no, its just the rain." Ten minutes later turn to her and just scream "STOP CRYING YOU FUCKING BABY!" Girls like a tough man as i've already stated.

22. Titty twisters and plenty of them.

23. If you're listening to music, and she asks to hear it, tell her no. This way she'll think you're mysterious.

24. Remember her birthday, but don't get her something. Teach her that material objects arent important. The only thing thats important is that she keeps you happy. And your happiness is the greatest present she can ever get.

25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, christmas, or just when ever, take it and tell her you love it. Then next time you know she's coming over on a trash day leave the trash can open and have the present visibly sticking out of the can. Girls actually don't like this one that much but I still think it's funny.

26. If shes mad at you for not calling her when you say you will, promise her that you will call her at a certain time of the day. This will make sure that she waits by the phone. Tell her when you call you're going to tell her a special surprise. Now shell be really excited. Then don't call

Ladies, repost "I want this guy" if you want a guy like this.

Ladies, repost "I have this guy" if your heart is given to that special someone.

Guys, repost "I am this guy" if... you are this guy.

Currently Listening Uh Huh Her By PJ Harvey see related

...Take a step back

So I recently joined the Cardinal Occurrences (school newsmag) Editorial board.  We had our first meeting today.  I was supposed to leave early, as I had to come home for something.  It took forever to get out of there, and I was running late by the time I got to my car.  I figured, no big deal if I race home just this once.  (And by racing, I don't mean 80-mine-an-hour racing.  I mean, 40-45 in a 35 mph zone.)  I'm making excellent time, hitting all the green lights, and I get to my street.  I slow down somewhat, because it's wet and rainy, so the roads are slick.  I take it nice and slow on the first bend, then, a little cocky, speed up a bit.  I get to an uphill turn, going less than 40 when I start to slow down when suddenly the car skids out of control.  I try to turn the wheel to fix it but I go crashing into the woods on the side of the road, my car shoved up by a bunch of trees.  The airbag didn't inflate.  I was physically fine, just EXTREMELY jittery.  A man and woman come out of the house across the street.  I roll down the window, yell to them that I'm okay, don't call an ambulance.  The man yells something back but I have no idea what he's saying.  He comes over to the car and says something about a rope and an SUV.  Disoriented, I nod and he goes back into the house.  The woman tells me that she did the exact same thing on Gaines today and that I wasn't even going that fast.  The guy asks if i should call the insurance people for the damage and I instead call my mom because I don't know anything about the insurance people.  She says she'll be there in five minutes.  The guy ties the rope to something under the car and to his car and gives me very specific instructions to put it into reverse and just tap the gas.  I try to, but nothing happens.  My mom shows up and the guy tells her we're going to need a tow truck.  We sit in the nice people's driveway for a long time, rain pouring down, me doing my homework, waiting for the towtruck then we have to follow it because they had to take my car to the shop.  I find out later that there had been a screw in the tire, which is part of the reason i lost control.

I'm fine... the car isn't too bad.  It's even drivable, except for the flat tire.  However, I am carless until we get it fixed.  Be careful driving, you guys.  Learn from my mistake.